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ok, since this is the only tool i have to get christie's attention, i'll have to use it. i never see her, i never talk to her, and she seems to respond to this thing.
i'm sorry if everything i said saturday night got you angry. i didn't mean for it to hurt, but i also want you to know that is how i feel, and i wouldn't have said it if that wasn't the case. i think some things were taken the wrong way, and that was probably my fault. when i said that your relationship with ross is like you and nick, i was in no way saying that it was the same relationship. its very different, and you are much happier. i give you props for being able to get out of it. but i didn't in any way mean to sound like i was comparing ross to nick, they are two very different people, and i know that just as well as you do- its obvious. at the reel big fish concert, i was the third wheel..i just felt like i was intruding the whole time. i did manage to have a good time at the show, and i did enjoy myself. that concert was a while back, and all these feelings have bottled themselves up for a loong time. when i blasted out on you that night, that was everything i'd been holding back. you never seem interested enough to talk to me, or ask if everything is ok. and i'm too proud to go up and tell you "i gotta talk to you". to me these reasons were too small to get all hyped about, but i guess i was wrong. so in conclusion, i apologize for any sadness that i caused you, and sorry about this crap. and if you told ross about all this, which i;m sure you did, he's a lot cooler than nick.
good luck at school.
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| 'there are other worlds than this' -jake chambers |
[16 Aug 2004|01:01am] |
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So I'm reading Song of Susannah, part 6 of the Dark Tower series. Sofar, it is quite the pageturner, as I expected. I hear the ending is rather aggrivating because it leaves you hanging...so I'm trying not to read it too fast. I like to have closure on these type of things :). The last book comes out in September, so I look forward to reading that.
I miss my friends..they all left for Ruston again. I just miss those hanging out nights and getting donuts and skating and stuff. I don't feel like I have much of a life outside of school. With you guys, I did. Oh well, you'll be home sometime I guess.
Once again I was made the happiest when Pete came down to go to the beach with me. We went to Gulf Shores, and there was a hurricane somewhere so we rode its waves. It was great fun! I learned how to play poker! I felt good cuz everyone knows how to play it but me. I had a blast with him, as I usually do. We went to N.O. to hang out with some friends, it was good to see everyone. I hope it isn't too far away til the next time we get to do that :).
I bought this really cool coffee mug at Shell on the way to the beach, and now, when i go to Shell, coffee is only 27 cents! It is officially the coolest mug in the land.
I like my co-workers. They are genuinely good people. I went to coffee call after closing tonight with Mike and John. I love those guys. I like laughing and just talking with them. I am trying to get everyone that works in the cafe to go somewhere and have a lil get together for us. But I'm not sure how that is going to work, because ssoooomeone has to work the cafe on that day/night the thing takes place. We will all have to work something out.
Ever have a feeling that you aren't recognized anymore? Like...by a family member? Yea, well I do. I know i should'nt be whining about all this petty stuff, but who cares. This is a journal right? I feel left out of a lot of things in this family. Not really too much with my parents, they are great and include me in lots of stuff. My mom even went to coffee the other night with me just cuz I wanted to. But most of the time, its Mom and Dad, and Christie, Andrea and Ross. Where's Jen? Alone, doing nothing. I guess I'm just making things worse than they really are, I'm sure my sisters aren't trying to do anything to make me feel this way, but sometimes I wonder. I am just never included in anything. And when I am asked, I think it's because they think they have to. Just to make themselves feel better. But I hope I'm wrong. The last thing me and Christie did was see Kill Bill 2 forever ago. But it seems like she has her hands tied up with her new boyfriend. Thats cool, i just feel all by myself. Andrea is no help at all. She leaves me all the time. Eating dinner, me and her, she leaves and sits in the living room with wiss and Ross. I am left alone. Riding home in car, she wants to go with wiss and Ross. I again, am left alone. I don't have too many friends, and the last thing i want to think of is my family 'taking sides'. Nobody is fighting, but it feels split anyway. Oh well, it'll work itself out. I'm trying not to let it bother me.
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i closed at work tonight, my feet are sore :(. lots of hours for me! yay. i've planned a trip to memphis, one in july and one in august. i can't wait to go up there again. i have so much fun, and all is so happies :). well im heading to bed :)
nite all
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[28 Jun 2004|09:00pm] |
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whew. this summer has been a fun one. the last few weeks have been nice.
i learned that 'i love you' can't be said enough. i learned that people, no matter how strong they may seem, need others. live music in the rain is a seriously good time. driving an suv and being big is fun! my cousins are cool at the beach.
dallas is an amazing city
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[28 May 2004|07:14pm] |
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yay i'm in the graphic design program! i went to the beach and my friend called me and checked my email for me and it was good news!
i got really burnt at the beach, but we all had a ton of fun.
pete is coming in tonight! i can't wait to see him! :)
yay i have off til monday and yay.
yay yay yay
i love silverchair all over again :)
i got a brand spankin new tranny in my car, and it now shifts like a dream :)
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[21 May 2004|01:07pm] |
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the summer has been amazing in its first week. i've done some shopping, got all my 'chores' done, and i cleaned my bunny which is really an accomplishment.
i made a 3.4 this semester, and i'm still awaiting my design letter.
i went out with a bunch of friends, we went bowling and then went to ihop after- around 1am. it was so much fun. proves that you don't need a whole bunch of money or alcohol to have a really good time.
i hope to keep in touch with all these people in the future, even thru the summer.
pete is coming down the last weekend in may. i can't tell you how relieved and how happy i am. we had a lot on our minds the last few weeks, and i never knew how effective communication is. maybe its' because i never experienced it before.
one of my good friends got into a wreck today, and his truck is really messed up..so is his foot. he's a trooper, i'm sure he'll be fine.
my car's little transmission shifting problem turned into a disaster. i had 3000 miles left on my warranty, and i finally brought it in. turns out i need a whole new tranny. :( BUT, my warranty is covering all of it, which is an answered prayer. the little blinking light turned out to be a major leak, so thats gonna cost me...but i'm ok with that as long as i don't have to pay for a transmission.
i'm having some money problems, but what else is new! as soon as i start getting my bigger paychecks, i'll be able to get it straight.
i can't wait til vacation! florida AND warped tour in one week. it's going to be a great time. i just have to buy tickets...
awaiting the final books in the dark tower series....
i started a puzzle!
work tonight at 6...at least i close with mike :)
personality is wonderful in a coworker. and a sense of humor too.
i need to get saturday off for fun stuff!
going to run off some of these pounds :O
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| countdown til summertime: 1 day and some hours |
[13 May 2004|11:43am] |
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After tomorrow, I'm free! Free from classes for a few months. A well deserved break for all of us.
I got an A in my graphics class :)! I worked so damn hard in there, but it paid off. I really enjoyed that class, I met some fantastic people that I hope to get to know over the summer and the following years of school. They are really fun and we all had so much in common. I miss them already! :)
I just hope all my other tests/grades go as well as my first one. I took my mythology exam on Monday, it hasn't posted yet. I take my last one tomorrow at 7:30. OK, WHOSE fault is THAT??
A 730 in the morning..TEST?! wtf. Aaaanyway, I'm supposed to go study today with my friends. I need an A on the test to get a B in the class. Let's hope that works out...
It rained a WHOLE lot yesterday. There was water everywhere. My whole backyard was flooded, there was water in my dad's shop, and water all over the roads...submerging them. Crossover was completely underwater, and some parts of Dunn too. It's so scary driving thru that kind of water with your little compact low car...I was just thankful that it was gone by the time I left work. It would have been crazy to drive thru it at night...with no one there in front or behind you...
Well I'm going to start studying for my test. Wish me luck.
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| how do you grow a healing garden? |
[05 May 2004|11:02pm] |
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hi.
today i talked to my parents about selling my car. they understand my situation, and agree with me. i can afford the car, but not comfortably. i'm trying to sell it as private party so i can get more out of it. i still have the loan to pay off, so i can't take under a certain amount for it. when i do sell it, if i haven't found another used vehicle, my dad suggested i use the isuzu until i find something. that way, i'm not too pressured into buying. i hope this works...
finals week is next week, and i'm'll make an A.
i have so much crap to do that i probably shouldn't be typing this right now, but that's ok cuz i've had a rough night.
i've had a rough week.
why do i feel so lonely?
sigh...
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| wow three posts in one week |
[03 May 2004|11:00pm] |
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semester is almost done!
sculpture project almost complete!
pancake breakfast tomorrow at school!
summertime!
road trips, music fests, and vacations!
lasagna, yum
books are the greatest thing
i love my best friend, and my bunny
these are the things i am happy about
yay!
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| i don't get a f*cking day off |
[02 May 2004|10:21am] |
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this has been the worst weekend ever. i'm so exhausted from work..it's been the biggest bitch. makes me want to quit.
someone doesn't really care a whole bunch.
i have projects to do and i'm not sure if i'll be able to finish them.
other people call you only when they want something.
finals week.
at last summertime. i'm not doing ANYTHING over the summer that i don't want to. well, except work. if i don't feel like it, i won't, and that's that.
i'm important too.
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[27 Apr 2004|08:31am] |
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been a while since my last visit, and the weather is great at this time of year.
i'm almost done with the semester, and i turned in my graphic design portfolio (my application) last week. what a relief that was. the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders. i worked really hard on it, all thru spring break and weeks after that. i put a lot into it, hopefully the committee will notice that. i have a good feeling, but i also have my doubts. i'll be nervous til my letter comes in.
i can't wait til summer vacation. i'll be getting lots of hrs at work hopefully, and that means i'll have moneys! yay! long time no see, moneys. but i can't spend it cuz i gots things to pay for. if i doooo get into the design program, i gotta buy a laptop. and i'm sure that will be a pretty penny even after all the student discounts i'll be using. anyway, and there's florida vacation to think about, that'll be in june for a whole week. the end of that week is warped tour, witch i'll be travelling to dallas, tx to attend. it will be a good time i'm sure. people from new orleans are coming, i'm tryyyying to find some more louisianians to accompany my on my trip, and pete is coming in from memphis i believe, so i'm looking forward to that.
although my job can be a lot of work, and really busy almost all the time, i love it. i love the people i'm with, they make it better. i feel like i'm better with them, behind that counter, making coffee. :) when we all go out, we laugh and laugh, we have a great time. thanks guys for making work fun and less of a 'job'. :)
a perfect circle is coming to uno in may, the 27th. anyone wanna come? its a thursday.
i got some sad news today, very suprizing...the only thing i can say is don't give up, it can be ok...just don't give up, please. i know i can say whatever i want, but it won't change their decision. :(
i almost bought a ham the other day :). she looked just like Ham. i miss my Ham so much..i didn't buy her because i have bun, who needs affection just as much as any other ham or bun. so i need to take care of my bun before i get a new ham. i almost bought like 3! :)
kix get really big when you leave them in the milk for a while :)
my graphics classmates are the greatest. we have so much fun together. its just cool to be around so many ppl that are in the same feild as you, and all have lots in common. one girl took us all out to the cafe for lunch. :) it was great. we had some good fun conversation.
ever had a buddy that you ..couldn't stand? well i think i have one...she makes her life more complicated than it is, she makes it out that her troubles are more than everyone else's. it is annoying. if you read this, you prolly know who you are, get over it. it is no good anymore. your life isn't worse or any harder than ours...in fact its prolly EASIER cuz the fact that you quit your new job because you didn't want to go thru training. wtf??? get a life dude, get your priorities straight and suck it up like the rest of us. being irresponsible and lazy isn't going to cut it in the real world. get it out of your head that your problems are bigger and they need special attention...cuz they don't. get off it.
i'm doing a sculpture head for my 1762 class, and it looks good. so we have to make a silicon mold to pour plaster into. so i did, i was coating my model head in silicon like we're supposed to...along with 6 other ppl. well the room we were working in wasn't ventilated and all of us bout dropped dead cuz of the fumes. mine was specially strong..dunno why, i had the same stuff as everyone else. aaanyway, it came off my hands, but stuck to my fingernail polish..so i smelled it all night. i was scheduled to wake up at around 9, but i got up with a SPLITTING headache at 7 and here i am. i was forced to take a goodys' powder (thank the lawd for that stuff, i dont know if i'd make it thru life), and about an hr later, i was pain free. it was a bad headache...it woulda taken shorter if it was a small one. but yea, so i'm full of caffeine :D
anyway, i think i've typed enough. time to start the day.
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| wishful thinking |
[29 Mar 2004|03:15pm] |
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the break of spring approaches. i'm excited, as in previous entries i have stated where i'll be and i don't feel like doing it again. but anyway, it should proove to be good fun.
school is going swell, making good grades and sitting through classes that are utter physical pain. all of my classes are great..except the damn fat guy one. i hate that class and everything about it.
ANOTHER thing about the fat class is that my friends sell me out every class! i have 2 friends in there and i'm the only one that shows up. one lives on campus, and the other pretty close. i get some colorful excuses sometimes. i don't care, i think i'll just say i didn't go ...and hide my notes :D
whaaat?! its not fair!
i am completely addicted to the Dark Tower series. i am in love with the main character, Roland. he fascinates me. all the characters are incredible, but he stands out. the books are so amazing and i encourage everyone on the face of the planet to read these books. stephen king started writing these in 1970, and there are 7 total books. 2 of them aren't even out yet. i have reason to believe that in the close future, or distant maybe, there will be movies to attempt to convey these stories...and i also have no doubt that they will fail. the movies will be good, but on no grounds even compare with the books themselves..as usual.
anyway, i think i may sit out of sculpture tonight. i just dont feel like going back out in the rain. and i need to work on stuff here.
this summer is gonna be fun. i'm looking forward to it.
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| there's a sams choice water bottle on my desk |
[12 Mar 2004|09:22am] |
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i have 3 projects due next week. goodbye free time...
there is also a st. paddy's day parade that i can't go to cuz of work :(
skipping class today. nothing interesting is gonna happen in there anyway.
thinking a lot about things and my future, i wish i was already to the point where something was happening.
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| midterm week |
[09 Mar 2004|09:13am] |
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its a sad time in all school history. the week filled with work, tests, and books and shit like that. yes. its MIDTERM WEEK...(to be read imagining loud echoing voice).
thankfully, i'm an art student and i dont have but 3 exams. i took one already, which will hopefully be good, but otherwise i can drop it if i need to. i have a sculpture and a mythology test on wednesday. what the HELL do you need to know in sculpture to have a WRITTEN test? it boggles me, but i can't think of much. i'd rather do a project or somethin.
my design class rocks. i like what we do, and i like the ideas i come up with. i reeeeeaally hope i can get into selective admissions on the first try...i don't want to bs my way all thru that semester.
st. paddy's day = the day of green drunken-ness. i love it. there is supposed to be a parade this saturday, but i have to work so i prolly won't be able to go. thas ok, i can enjoy green drunken-ness day in other ways.
so who wants to play on the parade ground grass? me!
the weather is so nice here, we have a beautiful spring. i am looking forward to spring breeeeak, which will take place in a few places for me :)...
spring break #1: orange beach, al. me and some of my friends are going to the beach to hang out and not do school or work stuff. we got a hotel riiiiiight on the beach, for a decent price. its gonna be funs.
spring break #2: pete's house. heh, i'm bringing all my graphics up there so i can start putting together my portfolio...i cant wait :)
toast for breakfast. yum!
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| hiiiii |
[04 Mar 2004|10:48am] |
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event: today
i'm a little stressed about money situations right now. i'm not getting enough hours at work, and my bills are just looking at me from my desk waiting to be paid. i put those problems in a pile and they will get sorted one by one.
i had a close encounter with the wasp kind the other day...it was quite interesting. my windows down, music up, wasp comes in to party and then he flies away. must've known that i was NOT afraid...:)
i finished my project, the one with the collage of the Dark Tower stuff. it came out good, sad thing is that i couldn't print it on the paper i wanted. but i like it :)
i need some more sketchbooks so i can sketch n stuff :)
thas about it for today, so until next time..
:)
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| valentine's day? |
[14 Feb 2004|12:29pm] |
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happy valentine's day....
i love you
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| a formal goodbye |
[04 Feb 2004|04:03pm] |
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This is to honor the passing of two very important, very special parts of my heart.
May both of you rest in peace, and watch over all of us.
We will miss you
Ham & Kitty
<3 always,
Jennifer
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[03 Feb 2004|07:16pm] |
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so, yea, school's up and running again. i love my classes and my schedule seems to work ok. im glad i have friends in some classes n stuff. cuz then that would suck if i didn't. i find myself thinking about my career...a lot lately, since i have a lot of classes that pertain to that. what the hell am i gonna do with a graphic design degree? ill be glad i have one, but where exactly will it take me?
who knows is all i can say.
i dunno if i posted this or not, but on january 5th, 2004, our precious Ham passed on. she was the best ham i'd ever had, and i miss her so much, to this day. i was really upset when it happened. i came home from work to find one of my best friends..dead. i didn't know how to react, but pete helped me thru it and now i know she's in a better, happier, safer, funner ham place now.
so anyway, yea i got my car fixed as well. hooray! it looks great, can't even tell i was hit. i've also noticed that i am much more careful on the road now..than before. which is a good thing. cuz nobody needs more wrecks. i missed it soo much. i loved mombly's car, even tho it was huge. i thank her for letting me borrow it for the time that the jetta was in the hospital.
i wuuuv my job. im so glad i work there now, i couldnt see myself still at hampton hell. i love the people i work with, they are so fun, and just like me. ive found we have a lot in common. they're all older than me, minus a select few, like one person. but i love them, they make me feel good about work n stuff. the time fliiiies, which is great, and i know how to make a good cup of joe. so anyone, feel free to stop by for a demonstration.
i see oddness in andrea. i dunno if i was like that, yea so hopefully not. she irritates me. just the way she is sometimes...makes me wonder who she is and why she does what she does, and also who the f she thinks she is. oh well. itll work itself out. as for right now, im the loner in the family,my closest member is the hamster..which isnt even mine. the one that greg no longer cares about. she's such a cutie :)
i may be going to memphis for mardi gras. i hope i can pull it off cuz i miss pete like a crazy bumble bee. yea i dunno why i said that. you get the point tho.
so, i saw stephen (ya, my ex) for the first time in about a year or whatnot. i talked to him in the line, he wanted coffee or somthing like that. im glad he's doing well, looks like he has a better head on his shoulders than he did when we were together. he asked me how life was, and i said it couldnt be better. and i wasnt lying. im so glad i can say that, and know its the truth.
im quite content with my life right now, and im happy the way things are going. i wish i had more friends, and i wish i had more money, but doesnt everyone? i have a handful of friends that are really cool to hang out with, we get along quite well. those are hard to come by. but i hope to hold on to them as long as i can, and not scare them away with my evil tactics...hah.
the dark tower awaits. ... ..
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| update on life in jen-eral |
[23 Jan 2004|09:17am] |
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well it's been about a year since i last typed to this thing, if it wasn't for boredom, i prolly never would have.
christmas and the holidays rocked. when we got out of school, i had a new job, i went to memphis for my birthday, and all was well. pete came home for some of the holidays, and i got to spend a lot of time with him. :) the new year was swell.
fireworking is always fun.
i love my new job, at the b*n starbucks if ya didn't already know. i like the ppl i work with, they are truly fun.
classes have started again, for the 4th time around. here it is, my fourth semester here, and i haven't even applied to the design program. i wonder how long i'll be here...
my classes are going to be fun tho. im taking: art structure, basic design, sculpture, art history, and a classical studies class that should proove to be fun.
anyway, speaking of class, i must get ready for it.
lay-tuh
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